Master's Property IS Beautiful

"Tear off the mask. Your face is glorious."–Rumi

Journal- June 23, 2014

Written By: slave_nipples - Jun• 24•14

Well, today was a good day. i had an interview for my school placement, so fingers crossed! it went really well, so i should hear tomorrow. NOTE TO FUTURE SELF- if you got the job, congrats! if not, you should still be proud of yourself; you did a great interview, have an awesome resume and you WILL restart your career and reach your goals, dont give up!

ok, now that i look totally crazy, moving on… i got my chores done, and Master has been very pleased with me this week. since He had His surgery, i’ve been giving 110%, it’s been super difficult at times, but i like it as well. we had a babysitter saturday afternoon to sunday afternoon and it felt amazing. i love our little girl beyond words, but the focused service to Master is something i’ve been missing for way too long. of course i’m always a slave, and always in service to Master, even when our little girl is here- it’s 24/7, not just when it’s convenient for me- but what i mean is that absolutely uninterrupted focus on Master’s needs and wants. i try my best on a daily basis, but i would be lying if there are times when that little voice in my head is saying “SERIOUSLY MAN!? i just picked up those damn toys for the billionth time today and mopped up the swimming pool of milk she decided to play in on the kitchen floor but absolutely, i’d love to get you a beer!” i’m certainly not saying i’m right, and honestly, i wish submission was without struggles as so many claim it to be (although, if you ask me, the whole notion is ridiculous- it’s effing hard!) Master mentioned when i was home after picking the baby up that i wasn’t putting the same effort in, and while He understands my multiple commitments to Him and our family, it’s not an excuse to be short with Him or get flustered and stop trying (which i will admit, i’m guilty of doing).

so, that got me thinking… and yes, i was doing that. it wasn’t a significant change once she got home, but there was a difference.

it wasn’t the automatic “slave…”, “Yes Master, i’d be happy to”…

it was “slave…” “Yes Master, one second, mhm, i’m coming, no bug, stop the banshee battle cry, momma already has a shadow, seriously kid, stop eating everything you miraculously find on my freshly swept floor, oh crap! Master wanted me, coming Master, yes Master, i can do that”

am i complaining, nope, that’s my life, and i love being a mom and a slave and every other role i have… but, it certainly comes with it’s challenges. a lot of them we discussed before we decided to start our family, and i knew it would change things, but i dont think i understood just how much. that being said though, it’s not impossible, it’s just different. we have an amazing little girl, who is currently splashing milk on her tray, brb! ok, the little monster’s in bed and now it’s momma time… HAHAHAHAHAHA! ya, right, like that exists. time for my workout and them collapse into bed. night

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